Posted on November 14, 2010Day Forty five – English Cottage Apple Art Apple - Day Forty five Art Apple – Day Forty five Don’t you think that life often puts things in front of you precisely when you need them the most. I subscribe to a Newsletter from a really cool website called Brain Pickings and today it arrived with a TED video talk that completely captivated me. A woman by the name of Brene Brown speaks and writes about the concept of wholeheartedness. Her belief is that to live life whole – heartedly you must be not only authentic but also vulnerable. That is the tricky part – opening yourself up to life and exposing yourself. This has been something that I’ve struggled with. I’ve spent most of the last 8 years hiding this horrible disease from co-workers, friends, and even some family. I didn’t want to be treated differently, doubted, or ridiculed. I somehow felt that having AS made me less of a person and that I had personally failed. I’ve come a long way in the past few years but announcing to the world that I have Ankylosing Spondylitis with this site was the most difficult thing I’ve ever done. It took a long time to realize that it is part of what makes me who I am and to not be ashamed of it. Now my challenge is to continually push myself to tell more about my journey – to live life sharing not only my art but myself. Until tomorrow. Jenna Day 45 was created with ink & watercolor. Update: If you are just now visiting this post – I couldn’t sleep last night because I really wasn’t happy with the pallet of my posted apple. So I just added an updated one. I feel so much better.