Day 169 – Live Boldly!

I was thinking today about living boldly.

This is something that I strive to do everyday; it means so many different things to me.  I wish I were better at it.

What does that mean to you?

To me it means finding courage everyday to fight through the struggles my body imposes on me. To me it means buying the fuschia top and not the gray one. To me it means attempting to speak up about my beliefs and in defense of others who can’t yet find their voice. To me it means that I will work to find the strength to do what is true to me and not what makes it easier for me to fade into the background, or to fit in or to please others. The really funny thing about life is that when you are true to who you really are – the people around you aren’t disappointed.  When you live truthfully you end up having an amazing magnetic pull once you’ve found your true north. In the worst of my days with AS – I want to wear that camouflage. Hiding in plain sight is where I went for many years. I know the pull of that life. Some days I want it back.

Living boldly means so many other things to me. I received my BFA in design – which to me means I didn’t go boldly into the idea of being an artist (no offense to design majors at all) For me a design degree instead of a painting degree was safe. I didn’t have the courage to try something that stretched me, I chose the path of least resistance; the one that didn’t require leaving my comfort zone. I chose a safe career, a safe place to live, and a wonderful but normal life. Wonderful and normal can be safe or they can take on bold shades. You just have to wake up to the grays you’ve surrounded yourself in and find the fuschias!  I want to live boldly and in full rockin’ color! I hope you’ll join me.

Until tomorrow.

Jenna

Day 169 was created in deep bold amazing full color!