Remember the Magic Eight Ball?
I had one and I would ask it the same question over and over again waiting for it to say “You May Rely On It” or “Signs Point to Yes” in response to “Does so and so like me?” or “Will I get an ‘A’ on my paper?”
The Magic Eight Ball refused to forecast my future in the way I wanted. It was so frustrating but I asked and shook over and over again.
My insecurities fed into the magic eight ball – what a brilliant product for the tweens who had no instant horoscope app for their smart phone.
If I had a Magic Eight Ball today I would ask it the same kinds of questions I asked all of those years ago. The desires just mean a bit more now and the difference today is that I know that as long as I work hard and keep my vision in my sights, I’ll get where I want to go.
Day 202 was created in watercolor.
Bite off more than you can chew and then chew like hell. – Peter Brock
This is the first Apple I’ve done with one bite out of it. Really – I’ve stayed away from that icon 🙂
Just because we’re making apples doesn’t mean we need anyone to associate us with “Apple” which is why I haven’t created any apple art that looks like their logo. If they happened to see our project and …
…well that would be an amazing thing for the world of AS awareness but I won’t hold my breath.
Maybe some day we could have “Apple” take notice. Why not take a huge bite – a huge leap of faith.
Something to chew on – and chew like hell!
Day 201 was created in ink.
Diseases can be our spiritual flat tires – disruptions in our lives that seem to be disasters at the time but end by redirecting our lives in a meaningful way. ~Bernie S. Siegel
There are days when it feels like the air has been let out of my spiritual tires but I’ve been so lucky that the worst of those days are few and far between for me now with the treatment I get for my AS.
I see the disaster that AS makes of lives – I see it everyday in the people I have connected with in the last 200 days. But I also see that there are so many who have learned to turn the disaster of chronic illness into amazing attitudes and incredible spirits. We have learned to overcome the disruption it’s made of our lives.
For anyone who has been recently diagnosed or for anyone going through a difficult time whatever it might be – it will get better. It will. And, you will be stronger and better for living through the really bad, bad days. You will come out the other side of those days with a deep knowledge that you can survive anything.
There is enormous power in a life where you’ve already seen the days when your spirit was deflated and empty and looked hopeless and you made it out of those days, past the disruption and disaster and you did redirect. The meaning and understanding and love that comes out of the knowledge that you can survive is something you should hold close and believe with all your heart that it makes your future so much less scary than the person who has never seen or lived your adversity.
Day 200 was created in Letraset Pantone Tria and Micron markers.
People ask me if I get creative blocks and wonder how I keep coming up with new apples.
I have no idea at this point but I think my struggles now are also how to write posts and don’t sound like a broken record. I have no inspiring words tonight just a very exciting and inspiring group of people to share with you.
AS’ers and our supporters are a truly amazing and courageous group.
Please visit a new site that will hold the Apples for AS and the stories of the people who made them. I am so excited and pleased to tell you all about Hope And Apples new website. Please take a look when you get a chance!
Day 199 was created in pastels and mocha ink.
I am struggling to come up with ideas!
On Saturdays I have been doing just a pretty painted apple and not posting much so that I can’t do – you know – Saturday stuff. But tonight for some reason I thought lines and circles. I never know what or how an idea might come out but I just have to go for it or I’ll be dead in the water and then the last 198 days would feel like they were for nothing. So I do the Nike thing and “just do it” – I just put something down and hope that y’all like it or if it ends up that I’m not sure of it or it isn’t my favorite I just hope you all won’t notice and it will get lost in the bunch.
These are the thoughts that go through my head as I start my daily piece. I may look like I’m confident but I’m so truly and completely lost most days. So if you like to draw or think you might like to put paint to paper some day – just go for it and enjoy the process. I’ve talked about this before but for me the creating and the pushing of my comfort zone is exhilarating if you let it be – if your just go loosey-goosey. Try it! Make an apple with lines and circles and don’t worry about how it comes out because you never have to show anyone. You just may find that you love what you created or you love doing it or you may hate it (so what if you do – throw it away and try again!) What I promise you is that you will go somewhere else. You’ll get lost for a bit. If you have AS or you don’t – getting lost for a bit in this crazy, busy world is… exhilarating!
Day 198 was created in graphite and watercolors.
*** One of my favorite posts about creativity was on Day 23 and a bit about the supplies feeling precious on Day 2!
I’d also like to thank Grace McKee for her support and recent email with a whole slew of wonderful ideas! xox
Purple is a dramatic color.
My grandmother Marguerite was a huge fan of purple. She commanded attention when she walked in a room – the purple outfit helped but it was mostly her zest and zeal that caused heads to turn even into her 80’s.
Look for those times when you can stir up the color pallet – purple is making a comeback and with it passion and drama. I was feeling a bit purple today – and I never, ever want to forget to be passionate and dramatic. I may follow in my Gammy’s footsteps!
Day 197 was created in watercolors, acrylics, graphite, and metallics.
“Light gives of itself freely, filling all available space. It does not seek anything in return; it asks not whether you are friend or foe. It gives of itself and is not thereby diminished.” ~Michael Strassfeld
Empathy is the capacity to attempt to feel the experience and suffering of another. When did the blurry line between you and me turn to a sharp crisp border that we don’t have the time to cross and take a peek?
I was so upset today to hear that a friend with AS had a family member who was gossiping about how if they just went to the chiropractor their life and pain would be fine. This kind of talk makes me not only sad but it makes me angry which then leads to me asking myself if I am then not exercising empathy in trying to understand where that person is coming from.
I cannot say I practice empathy if I do not try to recognize that empathy is not a selective experience, but a trait I will attempt to use for everyone and in all situations. I’m not saying it’s easy but I want to live my life trying to understand the road others travel. A greater level of empathy is a gift that has been given to me by my disease. I want to take this gift and give of it freely wherever I can but to build good empathy muscles – I’m going to have to exercise them often and wander across to a place I’ve never been, to places that perhaps even make me uncomfortable.
Where can you shine the light today and learn about the life and experiences of someone else?
Day 196 was created in acrylic inks.
The Empathy Exercise
I love and adore my AS friends!
I have been so touched by your courage, strength, and unending hope and love.
Please pass this along to anyone who has showed you love and support. You can right click on the image and save it to your computer.
Print it, email it, or post it to a friends Facebook wall with this note:
“Thank you ______ . I’ve needed your support and understanding because living with AS is very difficult and challenging for me at times. You have given me compassion, you have not doubted me, and most of all you have stood by me – that makes you my cherished friend. This apple is full of my love to you”
Day 195 was created in ink and watercolor – and a whole bunch of love!
My Mom is my best friend.
Well, my best girlfriend because my husband Doug and my Dad are my best friends too.
I am so lucky that they are all right here with me on this journey to create 365 apples. None of them told me I was crazy, none of them has ever doubted me in my quest. But, my Mom is my mom and my girlfriend and it’s a bit different – and very, very special. She is there for me whenever I need a sounding board or a pep talk. She is there for me cheering me on and helping me come up with ideas. She has also always known when to push me out of the nest and since we are so close (unfortunately not in miles but in spirit) she has had to tip me over that edge over and over and over in my life. I’m just so lucky that she’s also always been there to break my fall.
We were talking this afternoon and like most conversations we have in the late afternoon, I was bemoaning the fact that I had no idea what to create for the day. I think I may be getting to be a bit of a bore on the topic so thank goodness it’s my Mom who hears my frustrations and not all of you! So, today I was wondering what to create and she suggested a bird’s nest – the suggestion has been floated before but I’ve never gone with it even though I love the idea. So we laughed and we said goodnight – and she wondered what I would end up creating for her to see first thing in the morning when she signs on to The Feeding Edge for her “Daily Apple”
Won’t she be surprised that I used her idea!
Day 194 was created in graphite, acrylic, watercolor, and strips of magazine clippings.
Oh – I feel so much better!
Doug and I had such a wonderful time getting away for a few days. I was able to clear my brain, stop thinking for a bit, and laugh and enjoy spending time with my husband.
We had a bit of snow Saturday night.
It simply fell.
Big, huge, and wet cleansing flakes who’s only purpose was to refresh. The perfect weather for the perfect weekend.
Day 193 was created in ink and watercolor